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Birthday Surprise!

This guy I have been dating for a little while now, Zack, invited me over yesterday. I didn't think much of it cause this is a regular occurrence. WELL, his entire family threw me a Surprise Birthday Party

They went all out too! They had this huge set up of make your own sandwiches, got me a birthday cake (they even put candles on it and sang to me!), we played games, watched movies, and ALL OF THEM got me presents! Me and Z aren't even "official" yet either, I mean we have been dating awhile but we aren't officially bf/gf yet.
But his family was sooo super sweet! Made me feel super special, and has me thinking we are more serious (which is definitely a good thing!).

OH, and the best part of all, Zack got me a JUICY COUTURE purse He nailed what I like too, it's perfect! So brownie points to him for good taste! This was by far one of the best birthdays I have ever had. NO ONE has ever given me a surprise party before, so it made me feel super special



the purse he got me <3

Best Surprise Ever At Work

I GOT THE BEST SURPRISE EVER LAST NIGHT! Zack called me on his way back from dinner last night and we were chatting while I was at work. I told him to hold a second cause someone was at the front desk...that someone was HIM!! He stopped by and surprised me at work, TOTALLY MADE MY DAY!!! He stayed with me for a couple hours and we even got to watch a show (we were super slow at work)

I cannot tell ya'll how excited I was that he did that!!! We weren't supposed to see each other all weekend cause he was going outta town so it would have been over a week since we had seen each other, BUT HE SURPRISED ME!!!

Looking for Something Different

I have decided that this is the time in my life for great changes.

I recently started "seeing" someone, and he is kinda great. We have a lot of the same interests, personality traits, and we click really well. I'm not sure how to deal with this whole "dating" thing though. I have never really done it before, and I worry about screwing things up a lot. I am trying to let things happen organically but it is hard because I get those urges to call or text or what have you constantly but know I should just let it be sometimes because it is so new. Hopefully it progresses into something more, I can definitely see it as something that could be really special.

Otherwise not much else going on, just looking for a new job because the one I have now is miserable. I have been working the front desk at a hotel and have decided this is not for me in any way. I am working hard to find a new job and ASAP before I go psycho at my current job. I guess working with the public on this level just isn't my forte (haha). I had a couple interviews last week and I am just waiting to hear back, they said it could be at least a week before I heard anything so fingers crossed. HOPEFULLY by mid September I will have a new job that I love!

I will keep this updated if I get any word about said jobs, or if something extraordinary happens with this new feller. =)

Finally Back To Normal

Nick is finally getting back to normal!! Not that he changed completely but he had definitely been more cranky and anxious than usual. But I'm just going to assume that this is just part of the deployment process. I'm just glad to have my loving/funny/sweet Nick back!!! He has been so loving and sweet and I am just so anxious to see him now I can hardly contain it, and he is the same way, NOT TOO MUCH LONGER!

He is going back home to see his family soon and I am soo happy for him! He cannot wait, AND I KNOW they are more than excited to see him! We both decided it was best for him to go solo this time, because he hasn't seen his family in about a year, and nearly two years or more without someone tagging along! Not that I don't love his family, or that he doesn't love having me around, but he wanted to be able to spend alone time with them which honestly I don't fault him for cause if I was in his position I would probably want the same thing. But not long after he gets back I will be visiting him in HAWAII!!!!!!

I'm sooo ready for my trip, and I can't wait to start doing interviews to get a job out there soon. My plan is to get a job and move out to Hawaii HOPEFULLY before the end of the year. I'm trying to get into the hotel/resort industry, so we shall see where that takes me. I am just so ready to be with him everyday again, we had the best relationship ever when we say each other everyday. Not that it isn't good now, but distance is hard on us, and us being together is sooo much better. SO hopefully I will be out there soon!!! FINGERS CROSSED! Hawaii here I come whether you are ready or not!

Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday

Re-Integration

I know when they get back from deployment it is difficult for them to balance everything going on. They have to get back to a normal sleep schedule, they are trying to communicate more with everyone, and they want their social life back. HOWEVER I must say that the re-integrations thing is a GIANT pain in the ass. (pardon my french)

Nick has been so good about contacting me. He has already had to go back to work, he actually had to like a day after arriving home which I thought was kinda early but whatever. But, I am kinda getting spoiled and when he says he will call he doesn't always call (because he has been working/sleeping/or once out with friends). I don't like not hearing from him when I get a text saying something like "I will call u when I wake up" but then don't hear from him. I KNOW it's petty because he has been working ridiculous hours and he is having trouble readjusting but it is still driving me up a wall.

I start to panic too when I don't hear from him when I "think" I should have. I get all these ridiculous thoughts in my head or think the absolute worst ( have even gone as far thinking that he doesn't want to be with me). I am being absolutely absurd. But I do have to point out that my ex had broken up with me THE WEEK he got back from deployment so I think that has put be extra on edge so it has me comparing EVERYTHING which I KNOW I shouldn't do.

He hasn't gone an ENTIRE DAY without talking/texting me but I still freak out or get upset when it has been several hours with no word. I probably sound like a crazy person by now, but I know he loves me (he tells me all the time. Just yesterday he thanked me for being so understanding about everything going on. I think just this distance is really starting to get to me, and I really miss him. I need to learn how to deal with the fact that I can't always hear from him like I want especially when we have a 5 hour time difference. BAH when can I just move to Hawaii and all this madness be over with?

Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday

HE'S COMING HOME

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY! I finally got a for sure coming home date. I have been wanting to make this post for weeks now, but the date has been changing on like a daily basis and now we finally know FOR SURE that he is coming home!!! I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED I CANNOT WAIT! I have been suffering through this entire deployment and it is now finally coming to a close. I never thought I was going to make it, from Bahrain to Japan (and all of the events that have happened in both places this past year) I don't think I could have handled much more. BUT IT'S FINALLY COMING TO A CLOSE WOOHOO

Although he is coming home I won't get to see him til about the end of June or early July. He is going to be visit with family shortly. And I honestly am not really wanting to go, crazy as it sounds, but I don't want to share my time with him I would rather have undivided attention then to have to share. So shortly after his trip I will be going to visit him in HAWAII (aloha) which come on who can say that is not the better end of the deal?

BUT AGAIN I CANNOT WAIT! No more poor communication, no more worrying about where he is or his safety, no more wondering when he is ever coming home, because that day is about to arrive! I COULD NOT BE MORE EXCITED!! I cannot believe I made it.

Missing and Loving my Sailor More Everyday!!!!!!

7 months too long

So today marks seven months since I have seen Nick. he hasn't been on deployment this long, but he was stationed in Hawaii so the last time I got to see him before he deployed was seven months ago to this day. It just really has me thinking how much I miss him.

Finally this deployment is coming to a close, and he will be coming home to visit his family at the end of the month. I'm still debating as to whether or not I should go, not because I don't want to see him, but because I don't want to share my time with him and his ENTIRE family. I want to be extremely selfish and spend all my time with him and not share. He is flying me out to Hawaii shortly after he gets back, so I may just wait for that (but who knows).

But I couldn't be more happy that this crazy deployment is coming to a close. We have had to deal with so much, from the riots in bahrain to the tsunami in Japan that I don't think I could handle much more of this craziness. THANK GOD HE IS COMING HOME!

But on a brighter note here is a song that I found that I absolutely love and I thought I would share it with everyone, it's kinda old but still I fell in love with it, even sent it to Nick



Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday

GREAT WEEKEND

So this weekend was fantastical. The only thing missing that could have made this weekend spectacularly incredible and unforgettable would have been if Nick could have been there. But I tried my best not to let it get me down because I knew he would be here if he could.

Anyways, this weekend I made the big leap, I GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE!!!! I am now officially an adult (scary) and off into the real world. Graduation was kinda dull, but what graduation is just spectacular?) but it was still great because I got my 30 seconds of glory walking across that stage knowing I had worked hard for my degree.

I ALSO got my new skin for my phone, kind of petty compared to graduation but it still really excited me. It's the navy camo with I LOVE MY SAILOR on the back in pink...its super cute and I'm gonna upload pics as soon as I can.

But this weekend was super, and I'm in the DAYS until I get to see Nick again...holy cow can you believe it? SOOOOOO ECSTATIC! So ready for that day to be here already so I can just hold him and never let go!

Missing and Loving my Sailor

Today = Heaven

Today was so amazing! I don't know where to start because it was just such an amazing day ( AND I only got 3 hours of sleep)

First off today was my last day of official classes EVER for my bachelors degree. If that is not something to celebrate I don't know what is. These past four years have gone by so quickly and I cannot believe I am graduating in 10 days!

Then ALL of my classes got out early. I had thought it was going to be miserable today. I had a portfolio due, a test, a quiz, and a final paper due. BUT my test was wayy easier than I thought, so was the quiz. I know I aced my paper, and my portfolio was up to par according to my professor (woot)

AND to put the icing on the cake . . . the one thing that made this day absolutely heavenly was that I got to skype with Nick. And it wasn't just for a few minutes, it wasn't even just for half an hour, WE SKYPED FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF!!! It was absolutely incredible. He kept telling me how much he missed me, how beautiful I am, how he can't wait to see me. He told me he is flying me out to Hawaii when he gets back because he can't wait much longer without seeing me! I mean he was absolutely PERFECT TODAY, AMAZING, INCREDIBLE, there are no words to describe how happy he made me today. He gave up all of his sleep for the night to talk to me <3

I don't think anything could compare to today. I am literally on cloud nine and I never wanna come down. I LOVE HIM SO SO SO SO SO MUCH.

Loving and Missing My Sailor More Everyday

Pitiful

So I'm starting to feel just pathetic. Nick has been on deployment for 5 months now and I think it's now just really starting to wain on me. IDK why I haven't been affected by it so much until now, but I can't seem to stop thinking about him now. It's just killing me inside because I miss him so much. I feel like all I can do is think about him lately, I even dream about him all the time now.

I feel so pathetic because I have been staying up WAYYY later than I normally would just hoping that he might get online (when I know he probably won't) It's not like I'm just staring at a computer all day, but sometimes I want to. This is just getting to be soooooo tough. Why isn't there some manual or handbook to get me through this...something to let me know when this stage will pass? I need this deployment to end and ASAP. I wanna hold him in my arms again and NEVER LET HIM GO. I MISS HIM AND LOVE HIM SO MUCH, I just want him back already.

Loving and Missing My Sailor More Everyday

Sometimes.....

I wish I hadn't heard from him at all this week. DON'T get me wrong it was amazing that I got to see him and talk to him, it definitely made my day! But sometimes it is just easier not hearing from him at all. Now I feel so sad cause I don't hear from him, and it's only been a few days. I went an entire month basically without talking to him, and although it sucked I feel like it was easier because I knew I wasn't going to hear from him. Now that I heard from him once I wanna hear from him again and again.

I know it's not realistic to think he will have time to talk to me all the time, I mean heck his own parents don't hear from him. It's just harder once I have heard from him. I just miss him so much, and the longer I go not seeing him, not being near him the harder it gets. I just wish this deployment would end already so that I could be back in his arms again!

Sorry, my whining is officially over with :P

Loving and Missing my Sailor More Everyday

Jealous

SO Nick and I got to talk yesterday :D it was as amazing as amazing gets. He said he was going to try and call me today too. OF course I got my hopes up and expected to hear from him, and I didn't. I KNOW he is working mega hard out there. But I must admit I got a little jealous when I knew he had called his mom and not me.

I feel like an awful person for being jealous too, because HE SHOULD HAVE called her. I should also mention it's her birthday which makes me that much more of a terrible person. But I got jealous knowing that he called her and not me :( I KNOW I shouldn't be, but I just am. She has every right to hear from him MORE than I do today, but still. . . . I want to hear from him too.

I guess I just got a little too spoiled yesterday getting to talk to him, and now I want to talk to him all the time, which is unrealistic. I know I'm being immature about the whole deal, but still it kinda hurt a little bit.

Loving and Missing my Sailor More Everyday

SKYPE

OMG OMG OMG OMG! I GOT TO SKYPE WITH NICK TODAY!!! It was heaven! I literally almost broke down into tears while we were talking. I couldn't stop smiling! I looked like total crap, and I didn't even care cause I've missed him sooooooo much!

The circumstances were just aligned so right for us today! I was actually supposed to be in class, but because I am sick my professor told me not to worry about it and to just go take care of myself. WELL, when I got back to my room NICK WAS ONLINE! I don't think I could ever be happy to be sick until today! I'm just beside myself with joy right now! I've missed him so much, and to finally hear his voice to see him, it was like floating on cloud nine!

We talked for like 20 minutes then he had to go cause he has to be up early in the morning, so he stayed up just for me <3 He was actually about to sign off when I said hello (fate i think so) But we talked about everything, from work, to me graduating to him wanting me to move out to Hawaii, to the day he comes home!!!! :D BEST DAY EVER!!!!

This could literally go on forever so I'm gonna stop because I'm sure I'm rambling now. But I'm just so darn happy! WOOHOO! LOVE HIM SO MUCH! I'm still in shock from talking to him.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY SAILOR MORE THAN ANYTHING

The Wait Is Gonna Drive Me Insane

I got to talk to Nick's mom today. It was refreshing to talk to someone who knows what I'm going through, and knows my exact situation. But we didn't get to talk long. We both asked if either of us had heard from him yet, and it was a big negative on both ends. So I guess I can't be too upset, I mean he hasn't contacted anyone, not even his own mother.

Just is starting to take a toll on me not hearing from him. I wish I could at least hear something. Every now and then he will respond to an email, but the responses are usually very very short like they were written in a hurry. I know he is working hard over there and is doing what he does best, just stinks that no one gets to hear from him EVER anymore. I went from hearing from him like clockwork every other Sunday to nothing at all....and him changing locations was supposed to make our communication better not worse.

But I'm gonna put my big girl panties on and stop complaining. I know there are worse things. I just keep telling myself "no news is good news". No matter how hard it is not hearing from him, at least when he does write back he says he misses me and can't wait to talk to me either. I will probably cry like a baby the day I finally do hear from him. Until then, I'm living each day off of what I have heard from him, and knowing that "no news is good news".

Loving and Missing My Sailor

April Fools

I just did the best/dirtiest april fool's joke on everyone haha! I sent out a mass text that read:

"I'm engaged!!! We were talking on the phone when he told me to get on skype NOW. When his screen finally loaded he was holding up his iPad with a huge smile on his face and on the screen it said "will you marry me?" in an app with fireworks. I started crying immediately and yelled YES!! the only sad part was that he wasn't here to celebrate and that you believed this. APRIL FOOLS"

Oh how it worked like a charm.....so evil of me but still soooo cunning.
APRIL FOOLS EVERYONE

This Song is Incredible

So I heard this song today, and the first thing I thought of? Nick. The lyrics are just so powerful and moving. I sent it immediately to him once I found it online, the video is beautiful too! I seriously LOVE Michael Franti & Spearhead, I was obsessed with the song "Say Hey (I Love You)". His lyrics are always so inspirational and touch you right at the heart! I hope you guys like it as much as I did :)

On another note, still no word from Nick yet. Still waiting for that phone call. IDK what I'm going to do when I finally get it. I had a voice mail and missed call today and almost cried because I thought it was from him (static in the voicemail). It turned out to be just work calling me from an unknown number...go figure. Just hoping I hear from him soon, it's starting to drive me insane not hearing his voice, or being able to see him. I miss him more than words can describe. I just keep telling myself "soon". At least I know he hasn't spoken with anyone else either, makes it a little better (selfish but true). But I know he will call as soon as he get's the chance. "patience is a virtue"

Missing & Loving my Sailor

Peanut Butter & Chocolate...best combination since Saturday & Sunday

So I am making Nick a Care Package for his big 21st birthday! I am still trying to decide on his BIG present. It's between an Xbox Kinect or an iPad, I just can't decide which he will use more. Decisions decisions....I guess I will have to make up my mind soon cause this thing needs to be mailed out ASAP!

But I have been stuffing it with all kinds of goodies. Right now he has: a deck of cards, battle ship, sunflower seeds, reeses eggs(his favorite), gum, monster, a flask(getting that engraved with his name on it), picture of me, and a little note for his birthday with some love :D (I will post pics of his decorated box once its finished)

BUTTTT this is what I am super excited about sending him...because I am going to make them tonight, AND I get to eat some too haha! They are these chocolate covered peanut butter pretzel cookie things. They look like heaven, my friend found them online and I have been dying to make them. Here is the link:

http://17andbaking.com/2011/03/25/peanut-butter-pretzel-bites-dipped-in-chocolate/

But peace out all...I'll update later on how they tasted, I gotta run to walmart and get all the stuff to make those babies!

Loving and Missing my Sailor more Everyday <3

My story

So this is officially my first blog ever, and I'm super excited to start this.  I decided to start this blog because I know there are a lot of Military Significant Others out there, and we go through a lot of ups and downs.  So I figured why not share my journey with everyone, see who can and can't relate to what I'm going through.  This is my story.....

My name is Leanne and my boyfriend, Nick, is in the Navy and left for his first deployment in November for Bahrain.  I was a wreck when he left, and I never could have guessed what this deployment was going to throw at us.  We have gone through a lot of ups and downs.  Communication has been the most difficult part of all, Bahrain was a crap shoot to be completely honest.  His internet was slower than dial-up and he was working insane hours so he had little free time.  Then the riots broke out, and we didn't speak until he called to inform me he was leaving because the entire base was on an extreme lock down. 

I almost peed myself from excitement when he said he was going to Japan for the rest of his deployment  Japan meant better communication, more down time, and more time for he and I to talk!  It felt like a blessing, until the day he left.  The day Nick left was the day of the 9.0 earthquake and tsunami in Japan.  Neither his family or I heard from him for three days as to whether or not he had even made it safely.  We finally got an email saying he had arrived but had no clue as to when he would be able to call. 

Ever since he left for Japan no one has spoken with him personally.  He tries to update us whenever he can, but lets be honest he is working like crazy over there. With rolling blackouts and nuclear issues going on communication throughout the country just plain sucks.  I'm hoping this deployment comes to a close soon, not just for me but especially for him.