Nick is finally getting back to normal!! Not that he changed completely but he had definitely been more cranky and anxious than usual. But I'm just going to assume that this is just part of the deployment process. I'm just glad to have my loving/funny/sweet Nick back!!! He has been so loving and sweet and I am just so anxious to see him now I can hardly contain it, and he is the same way, NOT TOO MUCH LONGER!
He is going back home to see his family soon and I am soo happy for him! He cannot wait, AND I KNOW they are more than excited to see him! We both decided it was best for him to go solo this time, because he hasn't seen his family in about a year, and nearly two years or more without someone tagging along! Not that I don't love his family, or that he doesn't love having me around, but he wanted to be able to spend alone time with them which honestly I don't fault him for cause if I was in his position I would probably want the same thing. But not long after he gets back I will be visiting him in HAWAII!!!!!!
I'm sooo ready for my trip, and I can't wait to start doing interviews to get a job out there soon. My plan is to get a job and move out to Hawaii HOPEFULLY before the end of the year. I'm trying to get into the hotel/resort industry, so we shall see where that takes me. I am just so ready to be with him everyday again, we had the best relationship ever when we say each other everyday. Not that it isn't good now, but distance is hard on us, and us being together is sooo much better. SO hopefully I will be out there soon!!! FINGERS CROSSED! Hawaii here I come whether you are ready or not!
Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Re-Integration
I know when they get back from deployment it is difficult for them to balance everything going on. They have to get back to a normal sleep schedule, they are trying to communicate more with everyone, and they want their social life back. HOWEVER I must say that the re-integrations thing is a GIANT pain in the ass. (pardon my french)
Nick has been so good about contacting me. He has already had to go back to work, he actually had to like a day after arriving home which I thought was kinda early but whatever. But, I am kinda getting spoiled and when he says he will call he doesn't always call (because he has been working/sleeping/or once out with friends). I don't like not hearing from him when I get a text saying something like "I will call u when I wake up" but then don't hear from him. I KNOW it's petty because he has been working ridiculous hours and he is having trouble readjusting but it is still driving me up a wall.
I start to panic too when I don't hear from him when I "think" I should have. I get all these ridiculous thoughts in my head or think the absolute worst ( have even gone as far thinking that he doesn't want to be with me). I am being absolutely absurd. But I do have to point out that my ex had broken up with me THE WEEK he got back from deployment so I think that has put be extra on edge so it has me comparing EVERYTHING which I KNOW I shouldn't do.
He hasn't gone an ENTIRE DAY without talking/texting me but I still freak out or get upset when it has been several hours with no word. I probably sound like a crazy person by now, but I know he loves me (he tells me all the time. Just yesterday he thanked me for being so understanding about everything going on. I think just this distance is really starting to get to me, and I really miss him. I need to learn how to deal with the fact that I can't always hear from him like I want especially when we have a 5 hour time difference. BAH when can I just move to Hawaii and all this madness be over with?
Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday
Nick has been so good about contacting me. He has already had to go back to work, he actually had to like a day after arriving home which I thought was kinda early but whatever. But, I am kinda getting spoiled and when he says he will call he doesn't always call (because he has been working/sleeping/or once out with friends). I don't like not hearing from him when I get a text saying something like "I will call u when I wake up" but then don't hear from him. I KNOW it's petty because he has been working ridiculous hours and he is having trouble readjusting but it is still driving me up a wall.
I start to panic too when I don't hear from him when I "think" I should have. I get all these ridiculous thoughts in my head or think the absolute worst ( have even gone as far thinking that he doesn't want to be with me). I am being absolutely absurd. But I do have to point out that my ex had broken up with me THE WEEK he got back from deployment so I think that has put be extra on edge so it has me comparing EVERYTHING which I KNOW I shouldn't do.
He hasn't gone an ENTIRE DAY without talking/texting me but I still freak out or get upset when it has been several hours with no word. I probably sound like a crazy person by now, but I know he loves me (he tells me all the time. Just yesterday he thanked me for being so understanding about everything going on. I think just this distance is really starting to get to me, and I really miss him. I need to learn how to deal with the fact that I can't always hear from him like I want especially when we have a 5 hour time difference. BAH when can I just move to Hawaii and all this madness be over with?
Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday
Monday, May 16, 2011
HE'S COMING HOME
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY! I finally got a for sure coming home date. I have been wanting to make this post for weeks now, but the date has been changing on like a daily basis and now we finally know FOR SURE that he is coming home!!! I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED I CANNOT WAIT! I have been suffering through this entire deployment and it is now finally coming to a close. I never thought I was going to make it, from Bahrain to Japan (and all of the events that have happened in both places this past year) I don't think I could have handled much more. BUT IT'S FINALLY COMING TO A CLOSE WOOHOO
Although he is coming home I won't get to see him til about the end of June or early July. He is going to be visit with family shortly. And I honestly am not really wanting to go, crazy as it sounds, but I don't want to share my time with him I would rather have undivided attention then to have to share. So shortly after his trip I will be going to visit him in HAWAII (aloha) which come on who can say that is not the better end of the deal?
BUT AGAIN I CANNOT WAIT! No more poor communication, no more worrying about where he is or his safety, no more wondering when he is ever coming home, because that day is about to arrive! I COULD NOT BE MORE EXCITED!! I cannot believe I made it.
Missing and Loving my Sailor More Everyday!!!!!!
Although he is coming home I won't get to see him til about the end of June or early July. He is going to be visit with family shortly. And I honestly am not really wanting to go, crazy as it sounds, but I don't want to share my time with him I would rather have undivided attention then to have to share. So shortly after his trip I will be going to visit him in HAWAII (aloha) which come on who can say that is not the better end of the deal?
BUT AGAIN I CANNOT WAIT! No more poor communication, no more worrying about where he is or his safety, no more wondering when he is ever coming home, because that day is about to arrive! I COULD NOT BE MORE EXCITED!! I cannot believe I made it.
Missing and Loving my Sailor More Everyday!!!!!!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
7 months too long
So today marks seven months since I have seen Nick. he hasn't been on deployment this long, but he was stationed in Hawaii so the last time I got to see him before he deployed was seven months ago to this day. It just really has me thinking how much I miss him.
Finally this deployment is coming to a close, and he will be coming home to visit his family at the end of the month. I'm still debating as to whether or not I should go, not because I don't want to see him, but because I don't want to share my time with him and his ENTIRE family. I want to be extremely selfish and spend all my time with him and not share. He is flying me out to Hawaii shortly after he gets back, so I may just wait for that (but who knows).
But I couldn't be more happy that this crazy deployment is coming to a close. We have had to deal with so much, from the riots in bahrain to the tsunami in Japan that I don't think I could handle much more of this craziness. THANK GOD HE IS COMING HOME!
But on a brighter note here is a song that I found that I absolutely love and I thought I would share it with everyone, it's kinda old but still I fell in love with it, even sent it to Nick
Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday
Finally this deployment is coming to a close, and he will be coming home to visit his family at the end of the month. I'm still debating as to whether or not I should go, not because I don't want to see him, but because I don't want to share my time with him and his ENTIRE family. I want to be extremely selfish and spend all my time with him and not share. He is flying me out to Hawaii shortly after he gets back, so I may just wait for that (but who knows).
But I couldn't be more happy that this crazy deployment is coming to a close. We have had to deal with so much, from the riots in bahrain to the tsunami in Japan that I don't think I could handle much more of this craziness. THANK GOD HE IS COMING HOME!
But on a brighter note here is a song that I found that I absolutely love and I thought I would share it with everyone, it's kinda old but still I fell in love with it, even sent it to Nick
Missing and Loving My Sailor More Everyday
Sunday, May 1, 2011
GREAT WEEKEND
So this weekend was fantastical. The only thing missing that could have made this weekend spectacularly incredible and unforgettable would have been if Nick could have been there. But I tried my best not to let it get me down because I knew he would be here if he could.
Anyways, this weekend I made the big leap, I GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE!!!! I am now officially an adult (scary) and off into the real world. Graduation was kinda dull, but what graduation is just spectacular?) but it was still great because I got my 30 seconds of glory walking across that stage knowing I had worked hard for my degree.
I ALSO got my new skin for my phone, kind of petty compared to graduation but it still really excited me. It's the navy camo with I LOVE MY SAILOR on the back in pink...its super cute and I'm gonna upload pics as soon as I can.
But this weekend was super, and I'm in the DAYS until I get to see Nick again...holy cow can you believe it? SOOOOOO ECSTATIC! So ready for that day to be here already so I can just hold him and never let go!
Missing and Loving my Sailor
Anyways, this weekend I made the big leap, I GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE!!!! I am now officially an adult (scary) and off into the real world. Graduation was kinda dull, but what graduation is just spectacular?) but it was still great because I got my 30 seconds of glory walking across that stage knowing I had worked hard for my degree.
I ALSO got my new skin for my phone, kind of petty compared to graduation but it still really excited me. It's the navy camo with I LOVE MY SAILOR on the back in pink...its super cute and I'm gonna upload pics as soon as I can.
But this weekend was super, and I'm in the DAYS until I get to see Nick again...holy cow can you believe it? SOOOOOO ECSTATIC! So ready for that day to be here already so I can just hold him and never let go!
Missing and Loving my Sailor
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